The year in review

1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:05,860 Welcome to the Clinician Researcher podcast, where academic clinicians learn the skills 2 00:00:05,860 --> 00:00:11,260 to build their own research program, whether or not they have a mentor. 3 00:00:11,260 --> 00:00:17,340 As clinicians, we spend a decade or more as trainees learning to take care of patients. 4 00:00:17,340 --> 00:00:22,380 When we finally start our careers, we want to build research programs, but then we find 5 00:00:22,380 --> 00:00:27,780 that our years of clinical training did not adequately prepare us to lead our research 6 00:00:27,780 --> 00:00:29,200 program. 7 00:00:29,200 --> 00:00:35,480 Through no fault of our own, we struggle to find mentors, and when we can't, we quit. 8 00:00:35,480 --> 00:00:40,580 However, clinicians hold the keys to the greatest research breakthroughs. 9 00:00:40,580 --> 00:00:46,200 For this reason, the Clinician Researcher podcast exists to give academic clinicians 10 00:00:46,200 --> 00:00:51,800 the tools to build their own research program, whether or not they have a mentor. 11 00:00:51,800 --> 00:01:01,160 Now introducing your host, Toyosi Onwuemene. 12 00:01:01,160 --> 00:01:03,680 Welcome to the Clinician Researcher podcast. 13 00:01:03,680 --> 00:01:07,160 I'm your host, Toyosi Onwuemene, and it is a pleasure to be talking with you today. 14 00:01:07,160 --> 00:01:08,560 Thank you for tuning in. 15 00:01:08,560 --> 00:01:15,080 I'm excited to announce the last podcast episode for the year 2023, because we're going into 16 00:01:15,080 --> 00:01:17,740 the holiday season and I am off next week. 17 00:01:17,740 --> 00:01:22,800 And so I want to thank you for tuning in these last few weeks. 18 00:01:22,800 --> 00:01:27,920 The podcast launched in August, and I am so excited about the number of people who've 19 00:01:27,920 --> 00:01:33,480 been tuning in and regularly just letting me know how the podcast has been beneficial 20 00:01:33,480 --> 00:01:34,480 to them. 21 00:01:34,480 --> 00:01:35,640 So thank you so much. 22 00:01:35,640 --> 00:01:41,880 So for this last podcast episode of the year, I'm actually freestyling it, but I really 23 00:01:41,880 --> 00:01:46,680 wanted to stop and just really talk about the year in review, because I have to tell 24 00:01:46,680 --> 00:01:49,360 you, this has been a phenomenal year. 25 00:01:49,360 --> 00:01:53,120 And I mean, it's been phenomenal in so many ways, but I think the biggest way in which 26 00:01:53,120 --> 00:01:56,640 it's been big is just that, wow, I've grown so much. 27 00:01:56,640 --> 00:02:03,400 And the person who began this year as me is not the same person who's ending the year. 28 00:02:03,400 --> 00:02:06,520 And that is the biggest thing that I celebrate. 29 00:02:06,520 --> 00:02:10,880 And so in just thinking about the year in review and actually inviting you to do the 30 00:02:10,880 --> 00:02:16,640 same, I think I want to highlight the things that maybe are not like the perfect things. 31 00:02:16,640 --> 00:02:18,880 I mean, there are a lot of great things that have happened. 32 00:02:18,880 --> 00:02:23,400 I will tell you today, I finally looked through and I looked at the number of manuscripts 33 00:02:23,400 --> 00:02:27,840 we submitted this year, and we submitted 12 as a team. 34 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:33,840 And I'm proud of that number, not because of the number, but because of how far I've 35 00:02:33,840 --> 00:02:34,840 come. 36 00:02:34,840 --> 00:02:39,120 Because when I started my faculty career 10 years ago, I was someone who barely published, 37 00:02:39,120 --> 00:02:43,600 someone who barely wrote, I certainly was not publishing with mentees in my program. 38 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:48,940 And so for all of those manuscripts that we published this year, I think only one of those 39 00:02:48,940 --> 00:02:52,080 manuscripts was not done with a mentee. 40 00:02:52,080 --> 00:02:56,440 And so the manuscripts that we submitted don't represent the number of like, oh, wow, look 41 00:02:56,440 --> 00:02:57,440 at all that I've done. 42 00:02:57,440 --> 00:03:02,720 But it's just, wow, look at the people that I've supported to be able to succeed in their 43 00:03:02,720 --> 00:03:03,720 research. 44 00:03:03,720 --> 00:03:08,640 And that feels so important and so powerful to me, because to be honest, all the challenges 45 00:03:08,640 --> 00:03:14,440 that I feel like I've experienced in being a clinician making the transition to a researcher, 46 00:03:14,440 --> 00:03:20,000 they become worth it when other people are able to advance in their research careers 47 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:21,680 because of the work that I do. 48 00:03:21,680 --> 00:03:28,000 And so that represents to me such an important, important win, because it's not a numbers 49 00:03:28,000 --> 00:03:29,000 win. 50 00:03:29,000 --> 00:03:33,380 It's not even like, oh, look what I published when it's a wow, look at all the people who 51 00:03:33,380 --> 00:03:37,380 are coming up who are able to win because you're winning. 52 00:03:37,380 --> 00:03:39,160 And so that's so powerful to me. 53 00:03:39,160 --> 00:03:42,600 And I just wanted to just highlight that and just celebrate that. 54 00:03:42,600 --> 00:03:45,000 That's one of the things I'm celebrating. 55 00:03:45,000 --> 00:03:51,000 Another thing I'm celebrating is that this is the first year that I owned my expertise 56 00:03:51,000 --> 00:03:52,440 as a clinician researcher. 57 00:03:52,440 --> 00:03:57,840 So for the longest time, especially, I mean, again, I started 10 years ago and I was told 58 00:03:57,840 --> 00:04:00,200 that I wasn't qualified for this role. 59 00:04:00,200 --> 00:04:03,280 And I was told that if I really wanted to do research, I should do it on my own at nights 60 00:04:03,280 --> 00:04:04,280 and on weekends. 61 00:04:04,280 --> 00:04:06,600 And as someone who's come a long way from that, right? 62 00:04:06,600 --> 00:04:11,960 I started in an 80%, which felt to me like 100% clinical role, and I've transitioned 63 00:04:11,960 --> 00:04:15,000 to an 80% research role. 64 00:04:15,000 --> 00:04:19,800 And there are things I haven't accomplished that I've wanted to accomplish. 65 00:04:19,800 --> 00:04:24,960 For example, getting an NIH R01 has been a big goal of mine and I haven't accomplished 66 00:04:24,960 --> 00:04:25,960 that. 67 00:04:25,960 --> 00:04:31,040 But wow, if I look at all the things I have accomplished where someone like me who was 68 00:04:31,040 --> 00:04:35,840 a full clinician is not expected to have been able to accomplish that, is not expected to 69 00:04:35,840 --> 00:04:40,400 have been able to acquire grant funding to be able to really support and lead a research 70 00:04:40,400 --> 00:04:41,400 program. 71 00:04:41,400 --> 00:04:46,440 And so I'm celebrating my owning that expertise. 72 00:04:46,440 --> 00:04:50,880 And the reason I celebrate that is because when I was going to start this podcast, I 73 00:04:50,880 --> 00:04:52,380 was like, who are you? 74 00:04:52,380 --> 00:04:57,800 Who are you to stand up and say, oh, I'm going to do a podcast about transitioning from clinician 75 00:04:57,800 --> 00:05:03,260 to researcher when you still haven't even made it yet? 76 00:05:03,260 --> 00:05:05,160 And really, that was a conversation I had with myself. 77 00:05:05,160 --> 00:05:11,160 And I'm like, OK, so let's say someone who's 20, 30 years ahead of me has had multiple 78 00:05:11,160 --> 00:05:16,920 R01, U01, U54s, they've had P project grants, they've had everything. 79 00:05:16,920 --> 00:05:21,880 OK, maybe that person is qualified to come on a podcast and say, hey, look at all I've 80 00:05:21,880 --> 00:05:24,760 accomplished and please be like me. 81 00:05:24,760 --> 00:05:27,680 And so I think that person is qualified. 82 00:05:27,680 --> 00:05:31,360 The person who's 20, 30 years older than me, I don't think I'm qualified because I'm like, 83 00:05:31,360 --> 00:05:34,200 well, I've got so much yet to accomplish. 84 00:05:34,200 --> 00:05:41,640 And so part of me owning that win and celebrating that accomplishment is saying, you know what? 85 00:05:41,640 --> 00:05:49,560 I may not be the most qualified person in the room when it comes to clinicians leading 86 00:05:49,560 --> 00:05:51,480 research programs. 87 00:05:51,480 --> 00:05:55,800 But to be honest, the story of my life is I've never been qualified to do anything. 88 00:05:55,800 --> 00:05:56,880 I just do it. 89 00:05:56,880 --> 00:06:00,960 And then in the process of doing it, I qualify myself. 90 00:06:00,960 --> 00:06:04,840 And if I had listened to everyone in life who ever told me, well, you're not really 91 00:06:04,840 --> 00:06:08,760 qualified, somebody else is more qualified than you, I wouldn't have shown up. 92 00:06:08,760 --> 00:06:09,880 I wouldn't have advanced. 93 00:06:09,880 --> 00:06:12,080 I wouldn't have come to where I am. 94 00:06:12,080 --> 00:06:17,040 And so I think why that's such an important celebration to me is that it no longer matters 95 00:06:17,040 --> 00:06:21,040 when people stand up and tell me I'm not qualified because in my mind I'm like, so what? 96 00:06:21,040 --> 00:06:23,320 I want to do it and I'm going to. 97 00:06:23,320 --> 00:06:25,240 And because sometimes it's like, well, you're not qualified. 98 00:06:25,240 --> 00:06:27,920 Why don't you not try so you don't fail? 99 00:06:27,920 --> 00:06:31,560 But in my mind, I'm like, well, qualified or not, this is what I want to do. 100 00:06:31,560 --> 00:06:32,560 Let's do it. 101 00:06:32,560 --> 00:06:34,720 If it doesn't work, OK, it didn't work out. 102 00:06:34,720 --> 00:06:35,760 But you know what? 103 00:06:35,760 --> 00:06:38,440 It just might work and that'll be awesome. 104 00:06:38,440 --> 00:06:44,880 And so it's recognizing that I don't have to be qualified to give what I already have. 105 00:06:44,880 --> 00:06:51,000 I don't have to be qualified to just share my story because, hey, it's my story and to 106 00:06:51,000 --> 00:06:56,720 really own the successes that I have had in how far I've come for someone who was told 107 00:06:56,720 --> 00:06:59,800 from the very beginning that she wasn't qualified to lead research. 108 00:06:59,800 --> 00:07:05,460 And for that reason, she should just sit and do what everybody else is doing. 109 00:07:05,460 --> 00:07:12,000 And so I want to celebrate that I did not allow that to keep me from coming on this 110 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:15,160 platform and being on this podcast. 111 00:07:15,160 --> 00:07:17,640 So I'm celebrating that. 112 00:07:17,640 --> 00:07:21,840 Another thing I want to celebrate this year is that this is the year I did some different 113 00:07:21,840 --> 00:07:25,560 things that are not traditionally in line with academia. 114 00:07:25,560 --> 00:07:29,960 I think starting this podcast is one of them, but even studying a business as a coach, as 115 00:07:29,960 --> 00:07:35,320 a coach leading other clinicians to transition to research, that is different and new. 116 00:07:35,320 --> 00:07:37,160 I mean, I am a mentor. 117 00:07:37,160 --> 00:07:39,360 I have mentees within my research program. 118 00:07:39,360 --> 00:07:41,480 I know how much it costs to mentor. 119 00:07:41,480 --> 00:07:43,240 Wow, it's intense. 120 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:48,440 And the number of mentees I have in my program, I can't triple or quadruple that because it's 121 00:07:48,440 --> 00:07:50,920 a lot of intense, focused time. 122 00:07:50,920 --> 00:07:51,920 We're meeting every week. 123 00:07:51,920 --> 00:07:53,920 We're meeting in between those meetings. 124 00:07:53,920 --> 00:07:56,120 We're having conversations off the cuff. 125 00:07:56,120 --> 00:07:58,680 I'm available as concerns come up. 126 00:07:58,680 --> 00:08:01,040 That's a lot of work to be a mentor. 127 00:08:01,040 --> 00:08:04,960 And there are very few people that I can really pour into in that way. 128 00:08:04,960 --> 00:08:07,240 But wow, there are many people that I can coach. 129 00:08:07,240 --> 00:08:12,080 I can coach a lot more people than I can mentor because it's a different kind of energy and 130 00:08:12,080 --> 00:08:14,480 it's a different experience. 131 00:08:14,480 --> 00:08:19,320 And so it's been powerful to step into my role as a coach because, wow, there are so 132 00:08:19,320 --> 00:08:24,680 many more people I can reach and now it's not relevant that they're not in hematology, 133 00:08:24,680 --> 00:08:29,800 in my field of hemostasis thrombosis, interested in the kind of research projects I do because 134 00:08:29,800 --> 00:08:36,360 in general, what I'm coaching on is helping people really change the way they think about 135 00:08:36,360 --> 00:08:41,380 their careers, change the way they think about their ownership of their careers, and change 136 00:08:41,380 --> 00:08:45,340 the way they think about their power to advance their careers. 137 00:08:45,340 --> 00:08:48,480 So that's really important and super powerful. 138 00:08:48,480 --> 00:08:54,920 And I'm just really, really appreciative of and really excited by that because it's something 139 00:08:54,920 --> 00:08:55,920 different. 140 00:08:55,920 --> 00:08:57,120 I didn't think I would be doing it. 141 00:08:57,120 --> 00:08:59,240 But wow, what an opportunity. 142 00:08:59,240 --> 00:09:05,520 And so in celebrating that, what I'm celebrating is an openness to doing things differently, 143 00:09:05,520 --> 00:09:08,880 an openness to an entertaining new ways of serving. 144 00:09:08,880 --> 00:09:09,880 All right. 145 00:09:09,880 --> 00:09:16,680 The last thing I want to talk about is just celebrating the opportunity to help other 146 00:09:16,680 --> 00:09:20,880 people come up and help other people come along. 147 00:09:20,880 --> 00:09:28,000 When to be honest, the perspective of my life and coming into medicine has always been about 148 00:09:28,000 --> 00:09:29,760 helping people. 149 00:09:29,760 --> 00:09:34,640 I came to medicine to help people and I felt disillusioned sometimes in clinical medicine 150 00:09:34,640 --> 00:09:39,280 because I feel like, wow, there's so many people who could be helped who are not helped. 151 00:09:39,280 --> 00:09:44,320 And so there's always this cry of my heart to say, how many people can I help? 152 00:09:44,320 --> 00:09:49,760 And in stepping into my leadership of this podcast and stepping into my leadership in 153 00:09:49,760 --> 00:09:54,840 my own research program, as stepping into my leadership in actually going on many other 154 00:09:54,840 --> 00:10:00,060 podcasts this year, giving talks this year, doing things, going to business conferences 155 00:10:00,060 --> 00:10:05,240 I've never gone to before, it's allowed me to step into a place where I'm able to help 156 00:10:05,240 --> 00:10:07,080 so many more people. 157 00:10:07,080 --> 00:10:09,080 And that is so important to me. 158 00:10:09,080 --> 00:10:10,960 It is so powerful to me. 159 00:10:10,960 --> 00:10:16,920 Because for me, this journey makes sense to the extent to which I can bring a lot more 160 00:10:16,920 --> 00:10:19,000 people along with me. 161 00:10:19,000 --> 00:10:23,680 This journey makes sense to me to the extent to which I can help people succeed who've 162 00:10:23,680 --> 00:10:26,800 been told historically that they could never succeed. 163 00:10:26,800 --> 00:10:27,800 Right? 164 00:10:27,800 --> 00:10:30,120 And it resonates with me because I am that person. 165 00:10:30,120 --> 00:10:33,960 I am the person who was told, well, you know what, this is not for you. 166 00:10:33,960 --> 00:10:35,980 Quit while you're ahead. 167 00:10:35,980 --> 00:10:37,800 But I also recognize that I'm not alone. 168 00:10:37,800 --> 00:10:42,240 There are many people who are like me who are told every day, don't do this because 169 00:10:42,240 --> 00:10:44,040 it's too hard. 170 00:10:44,040 --> 00:10:48,200 And some of us listen to that, but many of us don't. 171 00:10:48,200 --> 00:10:53,760 And we're here because we dared to do something that people said we would not succeed at. 172 00:10:53,760 --> 00:10:57,800 And then we surprised ourselves and found out that we were successful. 173 00:10:57,800 --> 00:11:04,200 And so to me, the opportunity to offer people that gift of don't listen when people tell 174 00:11:04,200 --> 00:11:08,120 you you can't succeed just because you don't have a mentor. 175 00:11:08,120 --> 00:11:11,460 Don't listen when people tell you you can't succeed just because you don't start out with 176 00:11:11,460 --> 00:11:12,920 protected time. 177 00:11:12,920 --> 00:11:16,400 Don't listen when people tell you you can't succeed because maybe you've never written 178 00:11:16,400 --> 00:11:18,920 a grant or published a paper before. 179 00:11:18,920 --> 00:11:24,040 It's like, I mean, don't listen. 180 00:11:24,040 --> 00:11:26,320 But there will always be naysayers. 181 00:11:26,320 --> 00:11:32,960 And so it has been so awesome to step into the leadership that I have this year and really 182 00:11:32,960 --> 00:11:39,000 to be able to support many, many, many, many people along this journey. 183 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:43,640 I want to thank you for being a listener, for being someone who tunes in, even if this 184 00:11:43,640 --> 00:11:46,800 is your very first podcast episode you're listening to. 185 00:11:46,800 --> 00:11:52,320 I want to thank you because the fact that there are people who listen makes it possible 186 00:11:52,320 --> 00:11:54,000 to continue to speak. 187 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:58,180 I will tell you that in academia, I've been in many spaces where people have asked me 188 00:11:58,180 --> 00:12:03,240 to be silent or they've indicated to me that I was not welcome to contribute. 189 00:12:03,240 --> 00:12:06,880 It's like, well, this space is not for people like you. 190 00:12:06,880 --> 00:12:12,320 And so I recognize the importance and the power of having people around you who say, 191 00:12:12,320 --> 00:12:13,320 no, please speak. 192 00:12:13,320 --> 00:12:16,880 We're listening and we appreciate the value of what you say. 193 00:12:16,880 --> 00:12:22,880 And so I know that you're listening to this podcast because I see the stats. 194 00:12:22,880 --> 00:12:23,880 I'm looking at them. 195 00:12:23,880 --> 00:12:26,000 I'm like, oh, wow, people are listening from what? 196 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:29,640 I mean, people are listening from all over the world, which is surprising to me because 197 00:12:29,640 --> 00:12:31,760 I'm like, really? 198 00:12:31,760 --> 00:12:36,760 I mean, most of my listeners right now are the United States, which is my expectation. 199 00:12:36,760 --> 00:12:43,000 But when I see like a cluster of people listening, say in Germany, I'm like, oh, why is that? 200 00:12:43,000 --> 00:12:44,640 But it's exciting. 201 00:12:44,640 --> 00:12:48,840 And it allows me to keep speaking because there are people who are voting with their 202 00:12:48,840 --> 00:12:53,380 ears and saying, hey, we appreciate what you say. 203 00:12:53,380 --> 00:12:55,120 We appreciate what you share. 204 00:12:55,120 --> 00:12:58,380 And so I want to thank you because you are part of that crowd, even if you only listen 205 00:12:58,380 --> 00:13:00,200 to me one time. 206 00:13:00,200 --> 00:13:01,400 And I really want to say thank you. 207 00:13:01,400 --> 00:13:06,040 I want to say thank you because you have the option to listen to as many people as you 208 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:07,040 want. 209 00:13:07,040 --> 00:13:10,560 And somehow you chose to be here for whatever reason. 210 00:13:10,560 --> 00:13:15,560 And I want to say because you chose to listen, because you chose to download an episode, 211 00:13:15,560 --> 00:13:21,120 because you dare to press play, you've given me courage to keep speaking. 212 00:13:21,120 --> 00:13:23,160 And for that, I'm grateful. 213 00:13:23,160 --> 00:13:25,200 And I say thank you. 214 00:13:25,200 --> 00:13:26,720 All right. 215 00:13:26,720 --> 00:13:29,560 So I'm going off into the end of the year. 216 00:13:29,560 --> 00:13:31,760 I'm taking a week off. 217 00:13:31,760 --> 00:13:36,960 And I'm excited to be able to do that because as much as I have enjoyed this year and honestly 218 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:39,080 all the work I've done has been so fun. 219 00:13:39,080 --> 00:13:40,640 I've had fun this year. 220 00:13:40,640 --> 00:13:44,880 I've had fun in my work, in the manuscripts I've written, in the grants I've submitted. 221 00:13:44,880 --> 00:13:47,480 I've had so much fun. 222 00:13:47,480 --> 00:13:53,020 And I also recognize the value of taking time away, not just for rest, but definitely 223 00:13:53,020 --> 00:13:59,000 for rest because rest is critical to continue to move forward, but also to be able to reflect 224 00:13:59,000 --> 00:14:01,740 and say, well, what does 2024 bring? 225 00:14:01,740 --> 00:14:05,220 What do I want to create in 2024? 226 00:14:05,220 --> 00:14:09,680 It says not like, oh, I'm going to be surprised at what 2024 is going to bring. 227 00:14:09,680 --> 00:14:10,680 I love surprises. 228 00:14:10,680 --> 00:14:14,480 And I'm going to prepare to create things in 2024. 229 00:14:14,480 --> 00:14:15,760 I'm not asking 2020. 230 00:14:15,760 --> 00:14:18,800 I'm not waiting to see what 2024 has to give me. 231 00:14:18,800 --> 00:14:22,240 I'm like, well, 2024, this is what I'm coming to get. 232 00:14:22,240 --> 00:14:23,480 I'm creating. 233 00:14:23,480 --> 00:14:26,040 And I recognize my power in that creation. 234 00:14:26,040 --> 00:14:29,960 But in order to be able to create, I need to create space. 235 00:14:29,960 --> 00:14:33,640 I need to create time to do the work of creation. 236 00:14:33,640 --> 00:14:40,120 The work of creation requires opportunity for deep introspection, a rest in mind, opportunities 237 00:14:40,120 --> 00:14:41,800 for creativity. 238 00:14:41,800 --> 00:14:46,080 And so that's what I'm looking forward to in the next week. 239 00:14:46,080 --> 00:14:53,440 And really thinking about how I show up in 2024 more authentically, more real, more rested, 240 00:14:53,440 --> 00:14:55,680 really building rest into my day. 241 00:14:55,680 --> 00:15:01,400 I'm excited about next week as a time of rest, but I'm also recognizing that, well, one week 242 00:15:01,400 --> 00:15:02,920 is not enough. 243 00:15:02,920 --> 00:15:05,800 Rest really needs to be part of my daily experience. 244 00:15:05,800 --> 00:15:12,720 And so thinking about how does 2024, how does my approach to 2024 allow me to create rest 245 00:15:12,720 --> 00:15:18,600 while still having fun in the things that I'm doing as a clinician, as a researcher 246 00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:21,640 who's leading and building a research program? 247 00:15:21,640 --> 00:15:23,520 So I'm excited about that. 248 00:15:23,520 --> 00:15:28,600 I want to invite you as you are looking into your week or whatever it is that you're listening 249 00:15:28,600 --> 00:15:30,580 to this, because you know what? 250 00:15:30,580 --> 00:15:31,580 It's arbitrary. 251 00:15:31,580 --> 00:15:33,220 There is no real deadline. 252 00:15:33,220 --> 00:15:37,600 You could always stop and think about how you want to show up next week, how you want 253 00:15:37,600 --> 00:15:40,760 to show up today, how you want to show up tomorrow. 254 00:15:40,760 --> 00:15:46,240 Even if it's past, you know, it's now when you're listening to this January 1st of 2024 255 00:15:46,240 --> 00:15:52,520 or beyond, it's never too late to pause and reflect, celebrate your wins, and then think 256 00:15:52,520 --> 00:15:54,760 about how you want to show up in 2024. 257 00:15:54,760 --> 00:16:00,640 And if you ask me how do I want to show up in 2024, I want to show up boldly. 258 00:16:00,640 --> 00:16:03,480 I want to show up courageously. 259 00:16:03,480 --> 00:16:09,840 I want to show up and no longer allow shame to direct my path. 260 00:16:09,840 --> 00:16:14,680 I no longer am allowing fear to direct my path. 261 00:16:14,680 --> 00:16:15,680 I'm going boldly. 262 00:16:15,680 --> 00:16:20,840 If it feels crazy, I want to do it, because if it's crazy, I'm like, that must be where 263 00:16:20,840 --> 00:16:26,360 I am, where I must be, because anything short of that means I'm allowing fear to rule my 264 00:16:26,360 --> 00:16:28,420 experience. 265 00:16:28,420 --> 00:16:33,080 I'm looking forward to creating a career that's different from any career I've seen around 266 00:16:33,080 --> 00:16:37,860 me, because what I'm doing is living an adventure as an academic. 267 00:16:37,860 --> 00:16:40,640 And to be honest, you could do the same too. 268 00:16:40,640 --> 00:16:47,920 So I invite you to think about the year ahead, the weeks ahead, the months ahead as an opportunity 269 00:16:47,920 --> 00:16:51,720 to create your own adventure in academia. 270 00:16:51,720 --> 00:16:55,520 And don't look around and say, well, no one will let me do that. 271 00:16:55,520 --> 00:16:57,680 Nobody chooses what you do but you. 272 00:16:57,680 --> 00:17:01,000 And the question is not will they let you or not. 273 00:17:01,000 --> 00:17:03,620 The question is what do you want to do? 274 00:17:03,620 --> 00:17:08,000 How do you want your academic career to look like? 275 00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:09,920 What do you want it to look like? 276 00:17:09,920 --> 00:17:11,320 Who do you want to be? 277 00:17:11,320 --> 00:17:12,840 How do you want to show up? 278 00:17:12,840 --> 00:17:16,080 What experiences do you want to have? 279 00:17:16,080 --> 00:17:22,360 And I hear the voice of cynicism many times and like, well, I want a lot of things, but 280 00:17:22,360 --> 00:17:25,160 you know, whatever happens, happens. 281 00:17:25,160 --> 00:17:26,160 And it's true. 282 00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:31,700 There are a lot of things outside of our control, but there are so many things within our control. 283 00:17:31,700 --> 00:17:36,040 And if we stop focusing on the things outside of our control and really focus in on the 284 00:17:36,040 --> 00:17:41,640 things in our control, we'll find that we have so much more power and we've allowed 285 00:17:41,640 --> 00:17:46,200 ourselves to experience, to enjoy and to wield. 286 00:17:46,200 --> 00:17:50,840 And I look forward to opportunities to tell you more about things like that in the upcoming 287 00:17:50,840 --> 00:17:52,280 year. 288 00:17:52,280 --> 00:17:54,160 So at this time, we're out. 289 00:17:54,160 --> 00:17:56,040 I hope you'll take some rest too. 290 00:17:56,040 --> 00:18:01,620 If you have ideas for episodes that you want to see next year, please definitely send me 291 00:18:01,620 --> 00:18:08,640 a message at info at coedcoach.com or you can leave a message on our voicemail on the 292 00:18:08,640 --> 00:18:09,880 podcast website. 293 00:18:09,880 --> 00:18:17,160 That's clinicianresearcherpodcast.com or you can send me a DM through Instagram or 294 00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:21,040 Facebook and really more realistically through LinkedIn. 295 00:18:21,040 --> 00:18:25,880 Like LinkedIn, it's a space in which you will likely find me more often than not. 296 00:18:25,880 --> 00:18:29,520 Anyway, it's been a pleasure to talk with you today and thank you for taking the time 297 00:18:29,520 --> 00:18:31,920 to listen today and always. 298 00:18:31,920 --> 00:18:38,120 I wish you a very enjoyable holiday season, a time of rest and reflection. 299 00:18:38,120 --> 00:18:41,680 Enjoy as you look forward to the adventure that is ahead of you. 300 00:18:41,680 --> 00:18:45,880 As always, please share this episode with someone else and definitely let them know 301 00:18:45,880 --> 00:18:51,040 that we are offline, off the air for the next week or so. 302 00:18:51,040 --> 00:18:54,920 And I look forward to talking with you again in the new year. 303 00:18:54,920 --> 00:18:55,920 Take care. 304 00:18:55,920 --> 00:19:04,280 Bye bye. 305 00:19:04,280 --> 00:19:09,640 Thanks for listening to this episode of the Clinician Researcher Podcast, where academic 306 00:19:09,640 --> 00:19:14,920 clinicians learn the skills to build their own research program, whether or not they 307 00:19:14,920 --> 00:19:16,440 have a mentor. 308 00:19:16,440 --> 00:19:22,540 If you found the information in this episode to be helpful, don't keep it all to yourself. 309 00:19:22,540 --> 00:19:24,280 Someone else needs to hear it. 310 00:19:24,280 --> 00:19:28,320 So take a minute right now and share it. 311 00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:33,800 As you share this episode, you become part of our mission to help launch a new generation 312 00:19:33,800 --> 00:19:54,840 of clinician researchers who make transformative discoveries that change the way we do healthcare.